I'm Not Enough .....

                                                              I Need You

I was traveling back from one of the prison units late last pm and I received an email with a song on it from one of my children.  Coach and I had just been overwhelmed at the ladies in white.  The room was full of white uniforms, smiles, and pain.  I saw pain on every face, but also happiness in the Lord.  We came so I could share on ANGER, a very real issue for incarcerated people.  As I stood before them, I realized I was NOT enough for their needs.  How could I understand what they were going through???? Did I sleep without a pillow?  Were my clothes stained and not clean?  Had I lost most of my teeth from drugs and neglect?  Had I buried my child only 3 mo. ago just the day before he was to come visit me?  

As I listened to the song that was sent to me, I cried as I realized that I'm Not Enough ...unless YOU come, I need YOU, will you meet me here again.  That's what I heard over and over.  It was SO true.  How on earth could I be enough for this kind of wounds and pain?  If God did not show up, there would be no ministry, no healing, no wisdom, in my weakness, HIS glory would appear!  The ladies did not need me, not at all.  They needed Him because with Him healing will pout into the broken vessels, comfort to the mother in the back wiping tears the entire time, or the lady hoping she is not too old for our new program because she does not want to return home to fail.  Come Holy Spirit was all I could ask for.  

Again, Coach and I left changed, humbled to have served and stood beside the forgiven and loved of God.  We had visited God in prison and brought a cool drink of water through the Word.  Lord, we are NEVER enough, WE NEED YOU LORD, meet us Lord daily as we go where it is not easy, comfortable, or positive at times. May we never say, we can't go, but say, yes Lord, I'll be right there.  Not for a minute was I forsaken, for the Lord was in this place!